How is life in the entertainment business? Not going to lie, it has been competitive, slow and difficult. I have been grabbing opportunities when they present themselves. Although those opportunities have more been like once a month. I want more opportunities to present themselves, but sometimes things don’t go at the speed we predict. This isn’t the end evidently, I have just been keeping myself busy with other endeavors at the moment.
At the moment, I went back to finish my Arts associates degrees now that I qualify for financial aid and I don’t have a lot left to finish it. I have worked at a few places and done a few demolition gigs to survive financially. Although I have inherited a lot of debt through my obstacles in life, trying to minimize it as quick as possible.
Even with the financial and debt problems I’ve been going through, I can’t say that all of my loved ones agree with my goals and life style. That’s the one thing about having a life: it is your life and not for anyone else to decide how you live it.
I expect to release a few more videos sometime this month, I have just been busy with my job, education, and writing at the moment. I recently came back from Sacramento, California for my cousin Melanie’s wedding. It was my first time attending a Romanian wedding, I learned a lot about the culture than I knew before. I can say it will be an unforgettable experience. Just unfortunate that time just flew by so fast. Below I’ll go ahead and share a poem I wrote for the couple.
Today is a day. The heavens above send their doves. No gloves are needed, for mother earth indeed had wiped them with her holy leaves. One dove was lost, and the other became the precious cost. Up on the mountains lay secret foundations. The snow covering them as curtains. Hidden fortunes.
The one dove knew of the hidden powers. No one believed him. Who would retrieve them? Many laughedat him. He squawked a hymn. Having faith in a win. Snow melted away. Grass growing high like hay. The taxpayers pay.
Today is the day. He is deep in the woods. Behold a hovering olive leaf. He grabs hold of it with his beak. He remembers the hidden fountains. Without time to waste, he fly’s back. No more why’s, he on track now. The fountains are calling his name. A precious, snowy dove fashioned in his image. A reflection of himself. She squawks. He walks forward. An exchange is made. She pecks the olive leaf out of his beak. The heavens opening once more, showing the pair how much the mother and father care. “Dragobete saruta fetele!”
The heavens declared. They both stare at one another. No more of the abomination of desolation. Now the both of them a matrimony of creation. Both pursuing their unique truth like sweet fruit. No one could ever disolve their union. No more horror. No more darkness. Only delight and now a shining light. The morning star. The dream is no longer afar.
Thank you for reading my poem, I hope you all enjoyed it!
It’s near midnight here in South Carolina, and I’m listening to kundalini activation music. It’s been a miraculous experience listening to the vibrations. I can feel my aura being purified. A lot of the negative things in my life are floating away, they are just memories now. The more I meditate and listen to these vibrations, the more I feel free inside. I’ve had a few miracles happen these last two months in my life. My thoughts are slowly manifesting into reality and law of attraction is surreal. I always believed in the the law of attraction, but it is happening more often than ever before. I’m like a disciple of the law of attraction and it’s a sensational feeling inside. I cannot explain it until someone starts meditating and loving themselves.
These last couple of weeks I have discovered that I enjoy drawing. It allows me to express whatever I’m thinking inside and in a way it is like a medium to what is about to manifest in my life. I’ve always written down affirmations, and that is vitally important. Drawing our affirmations can also have an even greater impact in our spiritual and physical self. Even if you’re not an artist, try and draw something to relax your mind. I’m definitely not a professional, but you and I could one day reach that status. Everything is a maze, if we decide to walk through it then we’ll complete another maze.
Here is a link to what I am meditating to at the moment. You can find other videos, but here’s something to start off with. You’ll start noticing a difference in your life. I often listen to this when I go to sleep and wake up in the morning.
Tomorrow I start my first day of my college semester. I had a recent realization to finish my associates of arts degree especially now that I qualify for financial aid. When I was younger, I dropped out because I could not afford it. After doing my research and making a few phone calls, I was able to transfer my credits from Washington state to South Carolina. I only have about 2 semesters to finish the degree and figure it may come to use when I work outside the country as an actor and screenwriter. I will keep you all updated about my classes (taking four classes).
As always thank you for supporting my blog and supporting me financially. You all are a blessing!
I’m blessed that you’re reading this right now. I’m blessed that you have accessed my website in the first place. Thank you for visiting and taking the few minutes to hover around my website. I know it may not be a whole bunch of what you may have expected, but if you find something you can use, I’m more than grateful.
Many of you may have met me on Instagram, tiktok and telegram. Most of you are aware that I got banned multiple times recently on tik-tok. I am still attempting to figure out what I have violated in regards to their app. I have been following their guidelines closely, and am certain that there is some flaw in their monitoring. Either way, I’m glad that you are here. Most of my updates in life can be seen here or my Instagram account: zealouspursuit3000. I will do what I can to keep my conversations going with all of my fans.
Most of 2022 and this year, I have not been sick, thank God. I have realized that meditation and drinking a lot of water have kept me well. These simple two things have brought serenity into my mind. Not reacting to stressful situations immediately have benefited me more than ever. Meditation unlocks us to think rational and reasonable without allowing anger, or fear to influence us.
I understand that on a daily basis we have to make hard decisions on short notice, but take it all calmly, breathe a little bit, change the subject for a few minutes, refresh your mind, and hydrate a little. Close those eyes, and picture the situation and visualize yourself finding the solution. It’s not if you will find the solution, it has more do with how you will find it. If you can’t find it, tell yourself that you will. Keep repeating the phrases, “I will figure this out. The answers are within.”. Keep knocking inside, the answers will unleash themselves once the door is open.
I want to be in the moment. I want to visualize my future squaring away. I don’t want anyone, or anything altering the state of my mind. I am in the now. Tik-tok will not discourage me from talking about manifestation and being the winner of my dreams.
I no longer want to be fuel for the fifty machines of the USA. I am grateful for the opportunities and experiences in this corporation. I have come to realize that I no longer feel truly free in a country that controls my movement and tells me how to live my life, or where to spend my money.
I thought the pacific northwest was godless and had no future for me. I am noticing that both the north and south have their pros and cons. Regardless of the politics, or if I agree, or do not agree, I do not possess true liberty here as promised in the constitution. The constitution is an amazing document that only confirms our god given rights, but unfortunately the united states does not see it that way as the founding fathers once did.
I know that the machine will milk me as much as it wishes, but I choose now to eventually leave this empire. It isn’t for me and more power to whoever chooses to stay. I would rather own a home or apartment elsewhere than have the u.s government take it away from me as it sees it fit.
I truly believe that you want us all to be happy inside us and have our place of serenity. I pray to be one of the best screenplay writer and actor of the century. I pray that I become financially independent and wise with my investments. I pray that I live in a country(s) of serenity.
May I have a woman with the purest intentions and that is inspired by my journey of being broke to becoming a sensation of a lifetime.