Oh good! I spelled recession right. I’m alive and well, just going through some financial hardship, occasionally job hopping. Many of the jobs in the south pay very poorly and even if one possesses a basic AA degree, the raise is only a couple dollars more. I’ve known this factually especially when I still lived up north, but seeing it first hand just shows that many things must change for humans in the south to see a workable wage.
It’s funny to me that supervisors have an impression that if they raise the wage by 60 cents an hour, I will work harder. I promise I will not work harder especially if I’m treated like a pile of manure, with no breaks and hardly any employee rights. The cost of living has gone up at an exponential level beyond the pay we are making. I understand how inflation works, but not a 100-200 percent increase on a product, or service. The south is full of people that do not want any improvement of conditions from what I have observed. Excuses and excuses out of their mouths. They make fun of countries such as Mexico, yet they have created conditions similar to a third world country.
I’ve actually been to a couple of third-world countries, yet they still have a form of hospitality and culture in them. I felt like I belonged more. In the south, I am seen as an outsider. Most, not all evidently, just do not want anything to do with us from the north. The only times they want anything to do with us is when they can overcharge us on their products and services.
Aside from all the struggles that I’ve been going through, I have done my ultimate best to continue my acting and screenplay writing ambitions. I have had the opportunity in being in a few short films this years and writing a few screenplays. I am grateful for all of this and understand that I would not have done any of this if I hadn’t moved down to the south. There are some pluses in moving down to the south. I have found what I want. I may be in a shit-hole but I’m in a shit hole full of opportunities, being the fact that I live about 3 hours away from Atlanta.
As for next year, I want to be a part of a future length film. I’m excited to see what films I will be a part of in screenwriting and writing. I want to do other things that I choose to not mention just yet. What we speak about ourselves is what we will become. You have this power. The creator of the universe has granted it to you.
Even through these times, we can choose to see a light. Lets try to stare away from the darkness. Yes, it is there. But don’t let it define you.
You all have an amazing holiday!
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Yep- I’ve finally reached this milestone! Now I must aim for 500 posts. Will I get to 500 in 2023? I will give it a try. Depending on what projects I have for the following year, I will do my best to produce content on here that is fresh and productive to the mind.
I want to be the story teller that I’ve recently promised my readers that I would strive to be. I may pop into different spheres of topics. Self improvement has always been something that I e enjoyed studying as I have so many flaws and every once in a while I feel like a hypocrite. I’ve got all this advice, but sometimes I do the opposite. Or could I have some ego? This is all something I’m working on.
A hero is born among a hundred, a wise man is found among a thousand, but an accomplished one might not be found even among a hundred thousand men. ~Plato
Being accomplished isn’t something that 90 percent of the population will ever reach. This explains the difficulty of wanting to accomplish a particular goal, we often get distracted, fall over, or lose interest. We need to visualize the word accomplishment imprinted on our foreheads. It isn’t easy, but necessary to meditate on these thoughts.
Don’t beat yourself up. Another day is tomorrow. Today is a test we take. If we fail, we re-take it tomorrow.
The one thing I would change about South Carolina is the roads. Not only would I widen the lanes, I would have them refill all the potholes that have existed for decades, and I would make the roads more straight and less loopy. Every time I’m on the road, I get dizzy and sometimes feel the need to vomit. If you’re new to South Carolina, I encourage you to have a plastic bag in your car in case of an emergency. One loopy turn can trigger you to throw up.
2022 was an unexpected year, I never thought I would get into debt so quickly. But due to losing my job, a couple unforeseen emergencies, and unwise spending habits that I didn’t think were so unwise, I’ve fallen back into debt status. This is nothing to brag about nor take pride in. My goal is to pay it all off as soon as possible. I finally started a new job that guarantees forty hours a week plus overtime which will help me settle some of my debt. But also at the same time, I’m trying to sell some land that I owe in Arizona that I no longer have interest in keeping. Flipping retro items was profitable at one point in time for me, but I need to find a new strategy/side hustle for my free time.
Not going to fool anyone, I definitely don’t like working at all. Anything that resembles itself as slavery, I normally hold against as I’ve mentioned before that I like being my own boss. Desperate times sometimes require desperate measures. For now, I’ll work my ass off. I know the power of self belief, perseverance, passion, manifestation and the creator, I will overcome this new obstacle in this time. I can complain about being in debt during the middle of a recession, or I can attract an energy that will allow me to conquer this financial battle I am undergoing.
Words have power. Self belief has power. I want to motivate whoever else is struggling financially or with something else, you can do it. Don’t be embarrassed we all fall through the pit occasionally, we just need to channel ourselves out of the pit.
No matter who you are, believe in yourself and change the words you use to describe yourself.
Blessings and love to you all!
Whoever that has been supporting my website and me, thank you so much! You are contributing in making me a better spirit to become an example for society and to help others to reach their ultimate-self.
Almost Halloween already. Some are already freaking out about it through fear or excitement. Doesn’t matter in the end how people react to it, it’s just a man-made holiday. People choose which pill to take for this particular holiday. I don’t pay much attention to it unless it involves writing a screenplay or playing in a movie about Halloween. I want to make money and travel the world. All these regular holidays bore me to death. When I say holidays, I refer to American holidays. They’re way too cliche for me. For people outside of the usa, they’re infatuated with these American holidays. I understand that, they’ve never experienced it before. They definitely should. I just need to see something different every few months. I can’t stay in one spot for too long. I ask the creator and the spirit of light to bring me to the top of the mountain. I’m sick of being in the same, old desert. May I travel the world and see so much that I have never seen before. May I experience different cultures and perspectives. I want to grow as a human being and spirit and of course financially. I want to make a difference and help people that I come across my journey called life.
I wish you all of the blessings you deserve! Don’t deny it upon you. Ask and you will receive. Words have power. Claim them!
I want to share another short story of being a child in a strict Pentecostal household. I must’ve been in either kindergarten or first grade, so it was either 2003 or 2004 when Yugioh and Pokémon were soaring in the USA through the tv show, video games and trading cards. Everyone in my classroom pretty much all had trading cards. I started learning about these games through my classmates. The more I watched them play during recess, the more I desired to get myself a deck of cards for myself. It had a weird dopamine effect just by looking at the many illustrations in the card game.
After some thinking and learning more about Yugioh and Pokémon, I asked my mom to buy me a couple packs of cards when my mom took me and my aunt to Walmart. Mom didn’t know what it really was, so she ended up buying me the cards. I was the happiest kid in the parking lot looking through the many cards I had in my possession. I was already picturing future card matches during recess at school.
When I reached home from Walmart, my dreams of being a card player at recess were about to be shattered. I was showing my uncle the cards my mom had purchased for me. My dad sees me showing some cards. He grabs one of the cards, examines it and then rips it in half. “Dad, why? That’s my card.” My dad looks at me, “Yugioh is a demonic card game from hell. I can’t have you playing a devilish card game. They talked about this at church recently.” My dad takes the rest of my cards and lights them on fire near the trampoline in the backyard. I remember crying nonstop and locking myself in the bathroom. After this event, I would hide my cards whenever I acquired a card from someone. Yugioh and Pokémon were demonic according to the Pentecostal church and some vision a girl in South America who overdosed on drugs and had her supposed near death experience in hell. I never truly believed this, something about these belief systems never made sense. I believe in God, the spiritual creator, or however you want to label him or her, but the doctrines of the Pentecostal church never stuck in my mind. I would like to say I had some type of spiritual discernment. Something just felt off. Maybe us kids can sense something is wrong, but then slowly those feelings are brushed off through years of brainwash.
I still to this day get a weird feeling about those moments in my life. Those moments have taught me that people can be delusional through religion, politics and current world affairs. Many yearn for a leader, or a Shepard, from being afraid of thinking. Am I saying we should be out to expose them. For some people, they may. I choose not to. There are better things I can do with my time. Some will choose to keep their eyes closed and some will open them up and question their surroundings of life.
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I’m not even sure if anyone reads my blog anymore. I question if it’s really that interesting for the reader. Would the reader like to provide his or her feelings about what I write? I don’t know, but certainly know I could improve this website and only cover topics that the reader finds relevant to his or her life. I can only talk about goals and affirmations for only so much. I may be full of many questions about my website and what will keep people on here engaging, but I do have some answers for myself and the purpose of me focusing so much on affirmations.
Not going to fool anyone that I always had everything figured out all of my life, I was very lost over a year ago. I did not know where I was heading and did not even acknowledge that I was making some bad decisions in my life. I can even go far as to say that I did not give a flying f*ck because I didn’t think I could reach for the stars. I only believed in having a comfortable job where I could eat, sleep and sh*t. Trying the unknown was the furthest thought away from my mind. I only cared about the latest shows on Netflix, having beer stocked in my fridge and blowing my money on the most mindless things.
The path of not striving for something better was slowly leading me to a life full of stupid decisions, lots of heartbreak, and financial problems for myself. When I fell into the biggest hole of my life (rock bottom) I could of just easily given up and not done anything to improve my situation. I could’ve just laid around and moped in bed. I could have complained about all of my problems to friends and family. I could have searched for sympathy. I could have played the victim card. I could have become a depressed individual. I could have become many negative attributes in life, thank goodness the creator, the universe, and God looked out for me. I was introduced to affirmations and the law of attraction.
There was a basic book called “Change Your Thinking, Change Your Life: How to Unlock Your Full Potential for Success and Achievement” by Brian Tracy. My original self would probably just walk passed it at the local Barnes n’ noble and not think a second of the book. After a wreck that could’ve been deadly and beings thousands of dollars in debt, my mind was wandering into desperation. It hated being in constant torment and hell, there needed to be a solution, and FAST! My spirit began to hate the way my life turned out from my foolish, stupid, and dumb decisions. I took the advice to read the book which I normally wouldn’t have. This book exposed me, it made me realize that the greatest enemy that can be around was my own self. I was self-sabotaging myself, by not reaching for the sky, by not thinking that I would ever be wealthy, by not thinking I would achieve something amazing, by not thinking I would travel and explore something wonderful and amazing. I learned that I was constantly thinking about the negative things in my life. I was always stressed about getting in car accidents, not making money, being lied to, meeting the wrong woman, and making dumb decisions. There is a concept called “Murphy’s law”. According to Wikipedia, it can simply be explained as ” . . . ‘Anything that can go wrong will go wrong.'” Constantly believing this way I only brought a law into fruition known as the law of attraction. Thinking about the negative aspects of life only manifested and attracted it even more. I needed to change the way I think.
Changing the way I thought and how I interpreted the world made my life a lot easier. I’m not saying that I never had bad days, but I am saying that I had a lot fewer of them. Think of the problems as a non-reduced fraction. Thinking positively and allowing affirmations to form in my mind and written on paper mitigated those bad days and allowed me to conquer my obstacles and look at life more as a school that is purifying me to a higher realization. In the last year, I have overcome some dark periods of my time. I have let go of many things and I have exchanged the negative/slave mentality for the passion/wealth mentality. I no longer want to live like nothing matters. I want to live like something matters. No one needs to tell me what matters, I need to figure that out. There are a few things I’m still doing my best to pursue. I have tasted this journey for my passions, and some of it has come to fruition. I have discovered my desires and I want to keep digging for more of my desires. It doesn’t matter if the shovel is rusty and dirty, I want to keep on digging until I’m seeing lots and lots of gold.
Everyone has their own type of battle in life, but I can say that you’re not alone. Lots of people are going through hardships, especially in the middle of this recession. Keep on fighting and always trust yourself. Say no to Murphy’s law (self-sabotage), say no to imposter syndrome, say no to toxic people, say no to negative thoughts and do your best to abolish them all. Some forms of negativity will make it through our mind, but now it will be pretty much powerless, only reminding you of what you have accomplished so far. Negativity will now just be a reminder of the positivity and how you have grown so much in life. Don’t think someone is out to destroy you, only you can do that. Fight yourself to become a better version every day. It feels like every day we crucify ourselves, only to resurrect and improve.
I will be taking a break from this subject, but just wanted to discuss how it all started with this blog and my need to preach the law of attraction. I will be transitioning to discussing more of my life and short stories both non-fiction and fiction. To the very few that have been here since the origins of my website, I want to thank you for pushing me to keep writing. I trust you will enjoy my stories and please do comment your thoughts on everything I post. My goal is to improve as a writer. I love you all!
“Gucci on my shirt. . .” I’m listening to Mike Will Made it. No idea why I’m listening to the song, but I have a random playlist playing at the moment. Normally I’m not a big fan of this particular song, but at the moment it’s a little bit catchy. I mean, wouldn’t it be nice in wearing some Gucci brand clothing? I honestly don’t care as much about the brand as others, but when I have the spare money, I’ll flex the brand just for the hell of it. I’ll be wearing it and telling my readers, “Gucci, Gucci, pucci. Keep reading until your mind is done cleaning!” Maybe I can partner up with Gucci one day and have them promote my slogan on their clothing brand. I wasn’t going to post anything on my blog tonight, but because of one person online, begging me to write something this late tonight, I have made the decision to write something for my readers.
I grew up in the Russian/Slavic Pentecostal Church as a child. Most of the people going there were of Russian, Ukrainian, Belorussian, Bulgarian, and Slavic descent. This wasn’t your typical one-hour service type of church where you could dance and listen to contemporary style music. There we weren’t allowed to have any type of electrical instruments or the drums. Dancing was completely forbidden and compared as being possessed by demons and dancing with them in the spiritual realm. Only old hymns were allowed to be song and listened to during the service. Music mostly consisted of a choir and someone who would play the piano, or violin. As for outside of church, I wasn’t allowed to listen to anything but christian music. I tried to follow the rules, but being me, I liked all kinds of music as a child, especially rap and pop. I had two memory cards for my MP3. One of the cards was filled with christian music and the other was a secret memory card that my parents had no knowledge of. When they weren’t around, or when it was night time, I would listen to my “worldly” music. Back to the Pentecostal church, It was a 2-3 hour service, where it consisted of 5 different sermons, endless praying, and lots of outdated music. Eventually I started sneaking my iPod touch 4th generation in the year of 2012. My dad wouldn’t allow us to bring candy or any type of snack to the service. My dad was the Sunday school director at the church as well as a preacher there, so he tried his best to show that his kids were well behaved and mannered. At the church, there was a kid who really liked playing video-games, but his mother wouldn’t allow him to bring any of his games to church. This wasn’t any kid. He was the son of the secretary of the church. He had access to the church candy cabinet for Sunday school through his mother. He kept begging to play my Ipod touch during the service and then it dawned on me. I provided him a proposition; I would allow him to play if he would sneak candy out of the church candy cabinet. We negotiated and he agreed. I would let him play my Ipod during the service and he would provide me with an unlimited supply of candy. This agreement lasted for several months until his parents decided to leave the church. Church for the first time was a little bit enjoyable for about a year. It’s funny how something great ceases to exist, but I enjoyed it while it lasted.
If you would like to hear more about my time in the Pentecostal church as a child, I would gladly cover many more blog entries about this particular topic. Please comment your questions below, and I will gladly write about my experiences in being part of the Pentecostal cult on future posts. As always, please share my blog everywhere you can. The more people we have visiting here, the bigger our community will expand.
The last few days have been silent. Lots of thinking and lots of writing. There are some people I am happy to no longer contact or associate with. Times of struggle will show us who is by our side. Not many of our friends or loved ones will still be standing around us, and that’s okay. We shouldn’t be naive that a family member or friend will be there in time of struggle. Our will and spirit will only keep us persevering in achieving our goals. Once we have momentum, we need to just keep rolling forward and let our spirit guide us with our will giving us strength. When opportunity is presented and worth pursuing, it’s better to accept it. Most people are miserable inside and will try everything in their power to mislead you to not pursue opportunities and accept the drug known as “comfort”. Try to share less about your endeavors and goals with others at least not until you have completed them. I try and only share to like minded individuals about my plan in life. We may have some dark times ahead and that is only the universe testing us to see if we still want what we visualize in our minds. Keep visualizing what you aspire in your mind, look away from the nightmare in the back.
Not going to lie, I went out to a bar and grill. I got super bored writing in silence and needed some type of background noise. On the bright side, I had some good food, and met a few neat people. I felt like participating in karaoke near the middle of the night after writing a couple of scenes for my screenplay. I ended up singing one song by Usher and one song by Akon- the two songs brought back nostalgia of when I was still in middle school and how I would play these type of songs from my mp3 player for a girl named, Kaycee. I remember not having too many friends in middle school, except for a good few. Kaycee lived in the same neighborhood as I, and we had a few of the same teachers for some our classes such as English, math and science. I remember how her and I both hated our English/Literature teacher, Mrs. Hennenberg. We both called her the b**** of the school. Sorry Mrs. Henneberg, we were two kids that hated school and homework. You’re not a b**** anymore. I believe it was the summer of 2010 that I developed a strong crush for her (Kaycee). I recall telling her about my feelings towards her. Before anything could go further, we both moved. I moved to another neighborhood while she moved to Arizona. We never met each other in person again. I did try to message her several years later when we accidentally found each other on Facebook. She was already settled with a boyfriend, and developed a deep interest for horror movies, so we had something to talk about for a while, until I started dating a toxic girlfriend who coerced me to delete my Facebook, losing a lot of my childhood friends and acquaintances.
I haven’t thought about this in years, but it’s intriguing how our mind can associate a song or a movie with someone we knew in the past, making us remember them and imagine all of the what ifs. Memory lane is a neat feature we have in our minds, it teaches us that we were especially full of more spirit when we were children. Where did that spirit of youth go? It’s still there, but society has molded it into something opposite of it. Society wants us to be adults who only know how to be a bunch of yes man full of depression. We need to take back our power that we once possessed, to question and to fine joy and opportunity in the simplest moments in life. Evidently lets be adults but be energetic inside like we once were. I’ve noticed it sometimes can have something to do with having distractions around. If these distractions are putting us down and not allowing us to progress, then we need to either find a way to mitigate or eliminate the distraction that is keeping us away from the spirit of youth. I personally had to delete tiktok and a couple of social media apps since they were draining my energy and creativity. There’s nothing wrong with using these applications, but moderation and breaks must be enforced for ourselves. Time is worth more than money.
Singing at the bar brought that spirit of youth back and people around my age began to dance with me like it was 2010 again. Unity through music was witnessed that night. Not one fight or argument was witnessed. The spirit of youth filled us and made us energetic, and the spirit of peace made us all sing and dance together like a bunch of teenagers on the last day of school. I’m not sure if I’ve mentioned this on here or not, but every once in a while I dabble with writing lyrics for music. I want to ultimately write lyrics that resonate with the early 2000s. At the moment, a friend of mine is helping me with producing the sound for it. I cannot wait to sing my lyrics with the sound he is designing. I heard his samples, and they sound promising. This will be a new sphere for me as a writer. I want to put my writing abilities to the test and enlighten myself on what I need to improve on.
May I make a suggestion, especially if you’re having a bad day? I’m going to make it anyways. Go out and do karaoke whether it be at a bar, at a friend’s house, home, or online. Just do it! You will feel more alive and ideas will flow out of your mind. For the sake of therapy or harmony within, I urge you to sing for yourself. Be a kid and sing something from your youth.
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Before thoughts start to wander, I can assure anyone reading this that I am not about to discuss anything about sex or foreplay. I’m not saying that we’ll ever not discuss, but just not tonight. In my case, I just came from a run and my shirt is soaked with all of my sweat. I drank a little bit more of water and coffee than usual. I can’t judge, and what I have to say is that you all have a wild imagination and should channel that imagination in any method you choose to do so. If anyone tries and paints a portrait of me in any setting, I will feature it in my blog. I just love creative people and like seeing what their minds can manifest and construct into reality even if it’s a bit controversial. Controversial is my best friend. Comfort is the enemy of the mind and spirit.
I have been pushing myself to run and walk more, and once I have more money, I definitely would like to get myself a gym membership and possibly get myself into lifting weights. For now, I’m more focused on losing the extra weight I have. The journey is amazing so far. Having the focus to do what my mind desires is already forming a picture in my physical reality. We’ve been taught the wrong way all these years to achieve our ambitions. We’ve been pushed with the notion to look on the outside to find a way to solve a problem when seldom has anyone ever brought to our attention that the key to unlock great potential is within. All the greatest speakers in the world have one big thing in common; the master key. They had all placed trust in the world and the system, relying on meaningless dogma taught from the beginning of their lives. At some point they realized what they were relying on, wasn’t doing anything beneficial for them. In fact, relying on the system was doing more detrimental damage to their personalities and visions. When everything failed, when everything was lost, all that was left was only them. Why is this so significant? The significance is that they learned to talk to themselves and purify the filth inside, and start to build a new kingdom based on their voice of the inside and not the voices in the exterior world. Forming a world within based on a vision duplicated itself into the physical world when the season arrived.
When you have some spare time, perhaps even right now, try and visualize a portrate you’re familiar with or a family picture. Can you see it? If you can, then try and look deep inside your mind and think what will help you move forward in this life. As soon as you have discovered what you are searching for, visualize achieving this void already filled, the chaos ending and order brought forth. Continue to do this whenever you have some free time. Within time and the universe inside you, your greatest goal will manifest. Have faith, for it is the substance of materials hoped for and no substantiating evidence conveyed to the naked eye. Think less of the problem, and focus more on the solution. The solution will replace the problem. All the old things that brought pain will fade away, and a great awakening and abundant life will appear.
This was on my heart today and I felt the need to share. I hope and wish that my article brings some clarification into your life. Feel free to share your thoughts below. I am always looking forward to having discussions especially about these types of conversations. I love all of you guys, keep growing and strive for a positive life.
I’m jacked up on caffeine (coffee with agave syrup and chia seeds) and just got back from an hour run. My body may be sore, but I’ve got the case of the “runner’s high”. Doing all these walks and runs every night as a routine for the last few months has reduced my waist than before. I’m not as bloated ever since I cut off some certain foods and drinks. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll have a cheeseburger here and then. I just try to do something physically expedient for my body. It’s not only me though, I have my brother, Arthur, who keeps me in check to the best of his ability. Accountability to someone can be a booster to achieve a certain goal. I’m not saying we need help to achieve a goal, but it doesn’t hurt if someone similar to your mindset is willing to help. I definitely wouldn’t ask help from toxic people, or someone that will rub it off on you. Definitely please don’t do that.
In other news, I have an announcement! I finally received my feedback for my TV pilot that I wrote. I have some work to get stronger with my dialogue, scene transitions (getting too descriptive with some scenes), but overall they loved the concept and see potential with my writing. With a few tweaks and some refining, my screenplay potentially may be on television. The feedback is honest and fair; I’m pleased to have some professional writers review my work. As for the results, I’ll find out around the month of October if I got the contract and when it all begins. In the meantime, I’m working on my other screenplay for a horror film, but will start editing my pilot script soon. Thank you to all who have supported me in my journey of becoming a professional writer and actor.
As for my blog, I had my first donation and I wanted to thank my subscriber, Dan, for supporting me. It truly means a lot little bro. Dan and I go back a long time ago, even though we live over 2,000 miles away, I still consider him a real homie. Having one of my good, old friends be the first supporter of my website, brings joy in my heart. One little seed is bringing bigger things around me. A lot more people around the entire world have given their time to explore my blog and share my content across many platforms. I want to thank all of you for the love and sharing of my content.
I will keep updating on my blog as more things unfold. All I can say for now is that never give up on your vision. Allow what you visualize in your mind to manifest into reality. Vision and affirmations work. Speak words of fruition into your life. Always talk to your spirit. Stay blessed my readers and fans. I love you all.
It’s been over a year since I launched my blog, so much has changed in my life. I have put myself in positions I probably wouldn’t have before due to self-doubt and fear. From trying out the most random jobs to playing in a short film to traveling Europe to submitting my first screen play for a TV show pilot contract competition. I have experienced more than my old self would ever assume possible. The key is having a mindset that is there to build us up and to listen to our spirit, and take its guidance for our success. An adventure might seem time consuming, or overwhelming, but don’t let that stop you from trying. I promise the regret will hurt far more.
I by no means am trying to boast about my adventures, but I would like to use my experiences to open your eyes to not be afraid as well as motivate to do the unexpected. Don’t listen to me, but listen to your inner voice that’s been trying to speak to your mind, but because of the way your mind was molded growing up, you have locked this beautiful voice in the cell. Find the key, and unlock this angelic voice (spirit) and ask for it to motivate your tongue to utter words of blessings in your life. I promise that once you begin to speak positive words in your life, you will want to stop living a fake reality and in lieu pursue what your spirit desires.
I started working as a manager at a restaurant a couple of months ago. At first it was enjoyable and bearable to work there. I got to learn how to bake, prep, make milkshakes, and manage the restaurant. The only problem was that we had a couple of toxic people above me who would talk down to me and my coworkers, making sexist and demeaning comments. They would also not allow people to take bathroom breaks and when one of the girls asked to take a bathroom break, the other manager even went to rudely say to her, “Not until your coworker f$cking picks up the pace”. What’s super bizarre is that this particular coworker does a wonderful job when it comes to working in the front. I haven’t seen a negative environment such as this since I stopped working for BMW. I even had my hours cut from 40-30, a week with them still expecting me to produce more results when I was being forced to finish my tasks earlier. For a while I just kept my mouth shut since I had and still have certain bills to pay, but one day my spirit/intuition just told me to quit. Ironically this happened on the day when my boss called for me to her office. I close the door behind me, and she goes on to say that I have not been progressing as a manager. I brought up to her that she said the complete opposite the week before and how she is often contradicting herself about the expectations at work. I also brought up that my hours have been cut down and that the raise I was promised never had occurred. She went on to accuse me of being frustrated at work and not doing my job. Right at that moment, my spirit reassured me that it was time to leave this job position. “I quit!”, I screamed. She responds, “That’s what I thought”. I clock myself out and never look back.
Some may think that it was foolish of me to just drop a position like I did and that’s alright with me. I am not living to impress others or my peers. I am only living to compete with myself. I would rather struggle while doing everything I can to pursue my dream of being a writer/actor and ultimately reaching it than to just have a few extra dollars with comfort not living to my potential. God made this world beautiful. He made me, and I will do everything in my power to manifest my words into reality. I am a handsome creation, and I will do everything I can to bring beauty out of my mind. The power is within me. The will is awake for I have turned it on. I refuse to settle on a few thousand dollars a month when I can exceed far beyond that. In the Hebrew the word Satan translates as “accuser and adversary”. Comfort and fear is our “Satan” when we go through our journey called life. Will we allow Satan to offer us a temporary deal of comfort, or will we stump over him and say no to this fancy crafted deal? I choose to abolish any idea of a deal. I choose to go on a road with potential beyond my imagination. When Christ fasted for forty days and forty nights, Satan (carnal mind) appeared to him and offered a temporary solution to his hunger by turning stones into loaves of bread. This can be found in the gospel of Matthew chapter 4. I believe this is allegory for listening to our voice instead of the voice of our accusers. Literally anyone who mocks our vision are our accusers. Remember that the light is within us and to allow it to shine. We are the children of God and mother earth. Everything is already given to us inside, we must just learn to obey the wishes of our spirit. When we accept this, the accuser becomes weaker and ultimately rots away from our mind. Learn to read your manual not the manual of negotiators.
I love you all and wish all of you the greatest excellence in your life.